Friday, December 18, 2009

Under My Skirt

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I may as well not even say I wear a skirt, if I can
I am leading the life of a woman and a man
I am a single mother but I gotta be a father too
because I sure didn't find one in a man like you
a man? that's a compliment to say I am tryna be bigger
of a person cuz I really see you as a
word I hate to use but your ignorance is so prevelant
I would act like your not important, not relevant
but for my daughter's sake I will let her see with her eyes
that you are not a man of your word and all you spew is lies
I never cared for you with love and as time goes on I see why
You have some fucking nerve to speak thru your chick
and act like you are stepping up and that simple bitch
had the gall to defend you like she's your attorney
but she ain't walking a mile in my shoes on this journey
Women please stop calling yourself standing up for a brother
who has disrespected and mistreated their childs mother
we get enough shit having to deal with that fool
and to have the added stress of your drama ain't the move
Under my skirt I have to have the balls and be strong
the road ahead of me is tough, rough and long
I wear 2 hats, and I wear the pants
but I am woman enough to show her what to expect from a man
So I may as well not say I wear a skirt if I can
I am leading the life of a woman and a man

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

FINDING AND KEEPING A LIFE PARTNER

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FINDING AND KEEPING A LIFE PARTNER
Golden Rules For Finding Your Life Partner
by Dov Heller, M.A

When it comes to making the decision about choosing a life partner, no one wants to make a mistake. Yet, with a divorce rate of close to 50%, it appears that many are making serious mistakes in their approach to finding Mr./Miss. Right!

If you ask most couples who are engaged why they're getting married, they'll say: 'We're in love.' I believe this is the #1 mistake people make when they date. Choosing a life partner should never be based on love. Though this may sound 'not politically correct', there's a profound truth here.

Love is not the basis for getting married. Rather, love is the result of a good marriage. When the other ingredients are right, then the love will come. Let me say it again: 'You can't build a lifetime relationship on love alone'. You need a lot more!!!

Here are five questions you must ask yourself if you're serious about finding and keeping a life partner.


QUESTION 1:
Do we share a common life purpose? Why is this so important? Let me put it this way: If you're married for 20 or 30 years, that's a longtime to live with someone. What do you plan to do with each other all that time? Travel, eat and jog together? You need to share something deeper and more meaningful. You need a common life purpose.

Two things can happen in a marriage: (1) You can grow together, or (2) You can grow apart. Fifty percent (50%) of the people out there are growing apart. To make a marriage work, you need to know what you want out of life! The BOTTOM LINE -- MARRY SOMEONE WHO WANTS THE SAME THING!!!!!

QUESTION 2:
Do I feel safe expressing my feelings and thoughts with this person? This question goes to the core of the quality of your relationship. Feeling safe means you can communicate openly with this person. The basis of having good communication is trust ( i.e., trust that I won't get 'punished' or hurt for expressing my honest thoughts and feelings.)
A colleague of mine defines an abusive person as someone with whom you feel afraid to express your thoughts and feelings. Be honest with yourself on this one. Make sure you feel emotionally safe with the person you plan to marry.

QUESTION 3:
Is he/she a mensch? A mensch is someone who is a refined and sensitive person. How can you test? Here are some suggestions: Do they work on personal growth on a regular basis? Are they serious about improving themselves?
> A teacher of mine defines a good person as 'someone who is always striving to be good and do the right thing'. So ask about your Significant Other...What do they do with their time? Is this person materialistic? Usually a materialistic person is not some one whose top priority is character refinement.
There are essentially two types of people in the world: (1) People who are dedicated to personal growth and (2) People who are dedicated to seeking comfort.
Someone whose goal in life is to be comfortable will put personal comfort ahead of doing the right thing. You need to know that before walking down the aisle.

QUESTION 4:
How does he/she treat other people? The one most important thing that makes any relationship work is the ability to give. By giving, we mean the ability to give another person pleasure.
Ask: Is this someone who enjoys giving pleasure to others or are they wrapped up in themselves and self-absorbed? To measure this, think about the following: How do they treat people whom they do not have to be nice to, such as waiters, bus boys, taxi drivers, etc. How do they treat their parents and siblings? Do they have gratitude and appreciation? If they don't have gratitude for the people who have given them everything; can you do nearly as much for them? You can be sure that someone who treats others poorly, will eventually treat you poorly as well.

QUESTION 5 :
Is there anything I'm hoping to change about this person after we're married? Too many people make the mistake of marrying someone with the intention of trying to 'improve' them after they're married. As a colleague of mine puts it: 'You can probably expect someone to change after marriage for the worse' If you cannot fully accept this person the way they are now, then you are not ready to marry them.
In conclusion, dating doesn't have to be difficult and treacherous. The key is to try leading a little more with your head and less with your heart. It pays to be as objective as possible when you are dating; to be sure to ask questions that will help you get to the key issues.
Falling in love is a great feeling, but when you wake up with a ring on your finger, you don't want to find yourself in trouble because you didn't do your homework.

Another Perspective....
There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance. It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go of or at least minimize your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not-going anywhere relationships. Observe the relationships around you.
Pay attention. Which ones lift and which ones lean? Which ones encourage and which ones discourage? Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill? When you leave certain people do you feel better or feel worse? Which ones always have drama or don't really understand, know, or appreciate you? The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you, the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the front row and who should be moved to the balcony of your life.
An African proverb states, 'Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye'. Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don't let lust, pity, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low self-esteem make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren't really that important.
Do you bring out the best in each other? Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare and control? What do you bring to the relationship? Do you bring past relationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain? You can't take someone to the altar to alter them. You can't make someone love you or make someone stay. If you develop self-esteem, spiritual discernment, and 'a life,' you won't find yourself making someone else responsible for your happiness or be responsible for your pain. Seeking status, sex, and security are the wrong reasons to be in a relationship.

WHAT KEEPS A RELATIONSHIP STRONG ARE:
1. TRUST
2. COMMUNICATION
3. INTIMACY
4. A SENSE OF HUMOR
5. SHARING TASKS
6. SOME GETAWAY TIME WITHOUT BUSINESS OR CHILDREN
7. DAILY EXCHANGES (meal, shared activity, hug, call, touch, notes, etc.)
8. SHARING COMMON GOALS AND INTERESTS
9. GIVING EACH OTHER SPACE TO GROW WITHOUT FEELING INSECURE
10. GIVING EACH OTHER A SENSE OF BELONGING AND ASSURANCES OF COMMITMENT

If these qualities are missing, the relationship will erode as resentment, withdrawal, abuse, neglect, dishonesty, and pain replace it. Remember:

Happiness keeps You Sweet,
Trials keep You Strong,
Sorrows keep You Human,
Failures keep You Humble,
Success keeps You Glowing,

DEALING WITH DIFFICULT RELATIVES

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DEALING WITH DIFFICULT RELATIVES
by Max Lucado

Does Jesus have anything to say about dealing with difficult relatives? Is there an example of Jesus bringing peace to a painful family? Yes, there is.

His own.

It may surprise you to know that Jesus had a difficult family. If your family doesn’t appreciate you, take heart, neither did Jesus’.

“His family … went to get him because they thought he was out of his mind” (Mark 3:21).

Jesus’ siblings thought their brother was a lunatic. They weren’t proud—they were embarrassed!

It’s worth noting that he didn’t try to control his family’s behavior, nor did he let their behavior control his. He didn’t demand that they agree with him. He didn’t sulk when they insulted him. He didn’t make it his mission to try to please them.

Each of us has a fantasy that our family will be like the Waltons, an expectation that our dearest friends will be our next of kin. Jesus didn’t have that expectation. Look how he defined his family: “My true brother and sister and mother are those who do what God wants” (Mark 3:35).

When Jesus’ brothers didn’t share his convictions, he didn’t try to force them. He recognized that his spiritual family could provide what his physical family didn’t. If Jesus himself couldn’t force his family to share his convictions, what makes you think you can force yours?

Having your family’s approval is desirable but not necessary for happiness and not always possible. Jesus did not let the difficult dynamic of his family overshadow his call from God. And because he didn’t, this chapter has a happy ending.

What happened to Jesus’ family?

Mine with me a golden nugget hidden in a vein of the Book of Acts. “Then [the disciples] went back to Jerusalem from the Mount of Olives.… They all continued praying together with some women, including Mary the mother of Jesus, and Jesus’ brothers” (Acts 1:12, 14, emphasis added).

What a change! The ones who mocked him now worship him. The ones who pitied him now pray for him. What if Jesus had disowned them? Or worse still, what if he’d suffocated his family with his demand for change?

He didn’t. He instead gave them space, time, and grace. And because he did, they changed. How much did they change? One brother became an apostle (Gal. 1:19) and others became missionaries (1 Cor. 9:5).

So don’t lose heart. God still changes families.

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From He Still Moves Stones
Copyright 1999, Max Lucado

DEALING WITH DIFFICULT RELATIVES

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DEALING WITH DIFFICULT RELATIVES
by Max Lucado

Does Jesus have anything to say about dealing with difficult relatives? Is there an example of Jesus bringing peace to a painful family? Yes, there is.

His own.

It may surprise you to know that Jesus had a difficult family. If your family doesn’t appreciate you, take heart, neither did Jesus’.

“His family … went to get him because they thought he was out of his mind” (Mark 3:21).

Jesus’ siblings thought their brother was a lunatic. They weren’t proud—they were embarrassed!

It’s worth noting that he didn’t try to control his family’s behavior, nor did he let their behavior control his. He didn’t demand that they agree with him. He didn’t sulk when they insulted him. He didn’t make it his mission to try to please them.

Each of us has a fantasy that our family will be like the Waltons, an expectation that our dearest friends will be our next of kin. Jesus didn’t have that expectation. Look how he defined his family: “My true brother and sister and mother are those who do what God wants” (Mark 3:35).

When Jesus’ brothers didn’t share his convictions, he didn’t try to force them. He recognized that his spiritual family could provide what his physical family didn’t. If Jesus himself couldn’t force his family to share his convictions, what makes you think you can force yours?

Having your family’s approval is desirable but not necessary for happiness and not always possible. Jesus did not let the difficult dynamic of his family overshadow his call from God. And because he didn’t, this chapter has a happy ending.

What happened to Jesus’ family?

Mine with me a golden nugget hidden in a vein of the Book of Acts. “Then [the disciples] went back to Jerusalem from the Mount of Olives.… They all continued praying together with some women, including Mary the mother of Jesus, and Jesus’ brothers” (Acts 1:12, 14, emphasis added).

What a change! The ones who mocked him now worship him. The ones who pitied him now pray for him. What if Jesus had disowned them? Or worse still, what if he’d suffocated his family with his demand for change?

He didn’t. He instead gave them space, time, and grace. And because he did, they changed. How much did they change? One brother became an apostle (Gal. 1:19) and others became missionaries (1 Cor. 9:5).

So don’t lose heart. God still changes families.

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From He Still Moves Stones
Copyright 1999, Max Lucado

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Ten Things I Hate About You

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This blog is just about 5 things I hate and 5 things I LOVE! It will give you some insight into the type or person I am

1) I love music! Any kinda music! I just love the beats and especially the lyrics! Being a lyricist myself, I always listen for the message..it tells you a lot about the mind of that person. I read CD covers to see if people write their own lyrics.
2) I hate to be labeled - Just because I did something before doesn't mean I always will and I am not smart enough to learn from my mistakes. I am not a royal fuck up! I am highly intelligent. I don't need to be remnded of my mistakes. I know if we don't remember the past we are doomed to repeat it.
3) Which brings me to number 3..insulting my intelligent..don't..do..it..Just do us both a favor and don't. If you don't want to be proven wrong by me in the worst way, just don't go down this road with me. Someone is not gonna make it back from this journey and I can guarantee it won't be me!

4) I love Helllo Kitty! It is something about that mouthless, and no, she does not have a mouth..next time you see Hello Kitty somewhere look at her..no lips, no nothing.. but I love that cat. I hate cats though but not enough to make this list!
5) The N word..okay I used it to describe my baby daddy but that's because I despise him to no end. It was still WRONG! People we are so past, above and BEYOND this word! Let it die! We aren't rappers..they use it but they get a pass for creativity's sake..but even they should start a trend and NOT USE THE N WORD!
6) I love to read! Books have been my thing since I was 2 or 3 years old. I always have a book somewehre I am in the midst of reading. I will go in Barnes & Noble or Books-a-Million and lose my MIND up in there! lol
7) I hate liars - I despise people that tell lies. They are lower than a snake's belly to me. Moreover, I hate being accused of lying when I KNOW damn well I am not! I cannot stand being doubted, second guessed or double checked..it irks the CRAP out of me!
8) I love to play dress up! I like to look fly, smell pretty, all that. Being divaed up is my thing. I fell off just a tad because I am busy with my baby but you better believe I am gonna be the neighborhood hot mom! I get it from MY momma! Being a diva is a generational thang and I am definitely passing it on to my baby girl as well!
9)If I want to drop something petty, like a disagreement, please DO! I am about to blow up if you keep carrying on! My fuse is too short for bullshit! I have people in my life who do this and they still haven't learned that it annoys me to no end!

10) I love to travel! It excites me to pack up and to know I am going far away from home to new and exciting places and people. I like road trips but flying is the most exhilirating to me! Taking off down the runway is soooo much fun!

Friday, November 6, 2009

The Support

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Bang! That's the sound I envision
when the jugde grants my child support provision
your lack of responsibility gone land you in prison
you know you're dead wrong for denying
the beautiful bundle thats your offspring
Slam! That's the sound that will begin your personal hell
when your callous ways land your ass in jail
Slap! Is what I wanna do to that tastein your mouth too
cocky ass bastard walking around saying that you
don't have an innocent child that I brought into this world
but fuck what you're saying I know who fathered my little girl
Gasp! Is the breath that will come from your lungs
when you realize no matter how far, you just can't run
My momma didn't raise no fool, I can't really say the same for yours
mine raised a lady you have the balls to call a whore
as I said before
and in case you ain't heard
I'mma make you eat them words
I don't need to do a side by side picture to say
she has your eyes, nose, and mouth because she has your DNA
no need to get on Muary and do the latest hood dance
because a swab if your mouth means you never stood a chance
Simple ass motherfucker. so damn trite
if you think you can fuck my daughter over prepare for a dog fight
Crush! Is the sound of your big ass ego
when you notice half your check is missing and wonder where did it go
I see you like to brag about all the shit you acquired
but aint' bought a onesie, diaper, wipe or a pacifier
Its nothing that you could do for me in any other way
except to start taking care of our daughter today
I don't want to be with you, I don't want your touch
it wasn't all that and your package wasn't much
like I told you before and right now
I'll see you in court, some way some how

Friday, October 9, 2009

I'mma Kill A Lotta Trees...

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because tomorrow I run my happy ass down to the child supp0rt enforcement office..and I am gonna keep running until my no count baby daddy pays the fuck up! He is gonna get subpeona after subpeona becuase I know he is going to deny my daughter like he has been doing and will request a DNA test. *As Ms. Sophia to Squeak in Harpo's place when Squeak told her Harpo was her man*, "That's FINE with ME!". Baby, baby, DNA never liesssss...there will be no surprise, and this is not an episode of Maury Povich. Ryan Christopher Barthell, YOU ARE THE FATHER!